i have decided that i'm totally going to give up on guys!!!!! i think i WILL go on a date with the female therapist that keeps asking me out even though she knows i don't like girls!!!!
so last night i was talking to Mr. K and the whole relationship thing came up and i got the "it's not you it's me" speech. I AM THE QUEEN OF THAT SPEECH!!!!! pokey makes fun of me because he tells me that he has never met anyone that can give that speech in so many different versions. Anyway, right after i finished talking to mr. k i called pokey to talk to him about it and he laughed at me!!! "why are you laughing?!??!!? it's not funny!!!" i asked him, i was close to tears...very proud of myself because i didn't cry. his response was "sonrisa, i don't mean to be mean but this is the first time i see you on this side" ha? what? que? como? he goes on to tell me that ever since he has known me i have never ever given a guy a chance and that i'm the one giving the "it's not you it's me" speech and then he asks "so how does it feel?" it feels like crap!!! i say "welcome to my world" he tells me. you see i gave pokey "the speech" a few years ago and well know we've become really good friends. i'm glad that he didn't stop talking to me like most guys usually do. i was planning on never ever talking to mr. k but talking to pokey made me realize that i might missing out on a really good friendship. mr. k is a great guy and i think if i give myself some time i can get over this whole thing and just enjoy his friendship. hey, i've being doing that with mr. motorcycle so why not with mr. k...hmmm? i'm starting to see a pattern here. yeah don't want to get into that right now. i'm in pain people!!! PAIN I SAY!!! ok ya se me paso. i do like mr. k alot and i like hanging out with him..he is funny as hell!! have i mentioned that he is a stand up comedian. anyway, i get very upset when guys whom i have really enjoyed hanging out with stop talking to me because i don't feel a certain way about them. i don't want to do the same thing to mr. K. don't know when i will decide to call him up but i will keep you posted :-p