Wednesday, October 19, 2005

THAT'S IT!!!!

i have decided that i'm totally going to give up on guys!!!!! i think i WILL go on a date with the female therapist that keeps asking me out even though she knows i don't like girls!!!!

so last night i was talking to Mr. K and the whole relationship thing came up and i got the "it's not you it's me" speech. I AM THE QUEEN OF THAT SPEECH!!!!! pokey makes fun of me because he tells me that he has never met anyone that can give that speech in so many different versions. Anyway, right after i finished talking to mr. k i called pokey to talk to him about it and he laughed at me!!! "why are you laughing?!??!!? it's not funny!!!" i asked him, i was close to tears...very proud of myself because i didn't cry. his response was "sonrisa, i don't mean to be mean but this is the first time i see you on this side" ha? what? que? como? he goes on to tell me that ever since he has known me i have never ever given a guy a chance and that i'm the one giving the "it's not you it's me" speech and then he asks "so how does it feel?" it feels like crap!!! i say "welcome to my world" he tells me. you see i gave pokey "the speech" a few years ago and well know we've become really good friends. i'm glad that he didn't stop talking to me like most guys usually do. i was planning on never ever talking to mr. k but talking to pokey made me realize that i might missing out on a really good friendship. mr. k is a great guy and i think if i give myself some time i can get over this whole thing and just enjoy his friendship. hey, i've being doing that with mr. motorcycle so why not with mr. k...hmmm? i'm starting to see a pattern here. yeah don't want to get into that right now. i'm in pain people!!! PAIN I SAY!!! ok ya se me paso. i do like mr. k alot and i like hanging out with him..he is funny as hell!! have i mentioned that he is a stand up comedian. anyway, i get very upset when guys whom i have really enjoyed hanging out with stop talking to me because i don't feel a certain way about them. i don't want to do the same thing to mr. K. don't know when i will decide to call him up but i will keep you posted :-p

5 comments:

*~Marie~* said...

Oh my! I think we have the same life? I am the queen of keeping it just friends! Everytime a guy likes me...I suddenly lose interest and tell him we should just be friends...every....freakin time! So, I am with ya girl! It's a scary realization...that we...might...be afraid....of relationships! I am friends with everyone...and the one guy I did like and pursue...turned and did the same thing Mr. K did to you! Gotta love our lives!

DCNats said...

Sonrisa, I am SO sorry to hear that... I've been given that speech twice in my life and it never feels good. As far as continuing to be friends, one of my best friends is one of the two girls who gave me that speech! It was Freshman year and somehow we managed to stay friends through it all and we're still close a decade later. Of course it was hard to put all of my feelings for her behind me, but once I did it was fine.
But don't give up on men... I know that one day you'll find one perfect for you. But until you do, make the best of it and be glad you found a great new friend.

Santiago said...

a cabron...creo que si se te pego lo dramatica. a poco no es mejor ver la vida asi. pobrecita, dile que no sabe lo que se pierde.

Cracked Chancla said...

sonrisita, i hope you feel better. mr. k might come around if perhaps you make yourself less accessible. not returning phone calls and faking disinterest always works wonders. remember that what we can't have always looks more appealing.

mariposatomica said...

Sonrisa, I agree with CC. Feign pure disinterest. Gets them everytime. Maria Felix wouldn't stand for this man's nonsense. She'd move right on to the next one without batting an eyelash aunque le duela un chingo.