Mr. K and i had "the conversation"...yes THE CONVERSATION!!!! He called me sometime last week to ask how was i doing. i said i was doing fine.
"so do you want to talk about it"...IT so that's what we are calling it
"sure"...i said in a very nonchalant manner
"hmmm? so what did you want to do?"...damn it boy!!! you know what i want!!!
"well, I like you alot and i don't want to have a relationship with you based on only sex"...good sonrisa, very good
"well, here's the thing, i got alot on my plate, i mean i'm going to school and i working full-time, i do alot volunteer work at the hospital and i also have some sketches to work on, i need to do those before february"...ok
"aha?"...i know exactly where this is going but i want the mf to continue to suffer
"so, the thing is that i really like you too, alot, but i don't think i will be able to devote myself like you want me to and it wouldn't be fair to you"...hmm? not what i expected
"okay, well i don't want to be in a friend with privileges relationship and you're not willing to give me what i want so i guess there really isn't much as to talk about"...good sonrisa, very good
"well, that's not what i'm saying"...ha?! what?! que?! como?!
"okaaaay, so what are you saying?"...cause i'm freakin' confused!!!
"i don't want to have a friends with privileges relationship either, i just can't commit myself to you right now, at least not the way you want me to. i still want to have a some sort of relationship with you"....at this point hector and cracked chancla came to mind!!! hector because i was thinking "el guey bien que quiere manosear" and Cracked Chancla because "what's wrong with having a friend with privileges?"
"okay dude, not sure what you want from me but i've been pretty clear about what i want and you're not willing to do that so i think we should just leave it at that"...all sorts of emotions were running through me!!!
"sonrisa, i don't want to stop talking to you!! i like you alot!! but i'm not ready for a relationship and i know i'm being an asshole but i want us to maintain a relationship, not sure yet what kind but some kind of relationship"...aaaahhhh!!!
"well, once you figure it out give me a call!! i gotta go"...damn!! i should have just kept him for the sex!!!
So that was our conversation. He called me yesterday to ask how i was doing. told him i was doing fine and thanks for calling...i wasn't being cold or anything. we had casual conversation. don't know what's going to happen but as usual i will keep you posted.