so my weekend went okay...i hung out with pokey reese and his dad. we rode our bikes down the lakeshore path. i had dinner with fluffy, we went to the handle bar...awsome food!!!! sunday i went to my older sisters and then left because dork stopped by and well i felt uncomfortable with her not acknowledging that i was in the room...gotta love her. it hurts the hell out of me but really she's the one that is choosing not to talk to me. okay enough of that!! lets get to the juicy part...
Yesterday, i went to a work event...taste for every palate. it's like a mini inside version of taste of chicago. i ate all kinds of foods from t's restaurant, adobo grill, francesca...the list goes on, and all the wine i could drink!! no i didn't get drunk, it WAS a work event and i REFUSE to get drunk when i'm around co-workers!!! anywho, while i was there i kept checking people out!!! my fellow bloggers is this normal?!??!?! i mean i do have a boyfriend. i don't ever remember checking out anybody when i was with the ex!!! why am i doing it now?!?!? i do have a confession...i don't think i have ever mentioned the fact that i like girls too. this a comment i posted on Lady K's blog..
GGIIIRRRRLLLLLL, i know exactly what you mean!!! i do consider myself bi but prefer men. I don't tell alot of people that because i always end up getting the "you're just confused" speech. I'm really not confused!!AT LEAST NOT ABOUT MY SEXUALITY!! now ask me about anything else and i just might say "yes i'm totally confused about that!!" i've had girlfriends...great girlfriends and not so great girlfriends...and yes my current boyfriend, fluffy, knows about this and seems to be okay with it. Anywho, i just never really think about it, that's who i am and that's who i will continue to be. i won't just blurt it out but if i were to be asked i wouldn't deny it...again i have gotten "the speech" waaaaay too many times that it has become insulting at times so i just try to avoid it...the speech not me being bi ;-)
And so that's why i don't talk about it...anyway back to yesterdays event. well the thing is that there were alot of very nice looking women and i kept checking them out!!! what is that about?!??! i really like my fluffy and well he has provided everything for me ;-) there are days in which i can't wait to see him to hug him and kiss him!! anywho, last night i got home and i was feeling very very guilty...i felt like i had cheated on the guy. i'm pretty sure that the people who have given me "the speech" will most likely be telling me something about me coming to terms with me being a lesbian...hmm? yeah no, i enjoy men waaaay too much to just stick to women!!! as i mentioned before i very much enjoy my fluffman!!! so it normal for me to check out other individuals while i'm dating fluffy?