Thursday, March 09, 2006

i'm tired...

of being tired!!!! i haven't been feeling well for the past few weeks and my doctor seems to not know what's wrong with me. within the last two weeks the nurses have taken more blood than i thought i had!!! i've been to the hospital three times, nurses checking this and that, poking me here and there, and each time they keep on taking more blood!!! "couldn't you just use the same blood you took last time?" i ask the nurse "i'm sorry sweetie" she tells me with a smile shaking her head no. so there she goes poking me again!!! i've been physically tired for these past few weeks. ms. jillipooh tells me "well they keep taking your blood of course your tired!!" well i'm tired of being tired!!! DAMN IT!!! i got a call last week from my doctor and she tells me that everything is okay but that she would like to see again this week. I love my doctor, i think i've mentioned this before. i've been with her ever since i can remember. She calls me mi'ja when ever i go to see her. last week when i went to go see her she was being very straight forward with me "you need to take better care of yourself mi'ja and start doing what i tell you!!" I guess she noticed that i was feeling like i was dissappointing her so she hugs and tells me "i'm telling you this because i care about you". i love her!!! the only thing that kind of frustrates me is that she is waaaay south and everytime she refers me somewhere it's around her neck of the woods and well i don't have car. it takes like four hours to come back and forth which means i end up taking either the day or half of the day off from work. it can be a pain at times, especially when i'm not feeling well. i'm have another appointment in april and let me telling you that i'm not looking forward to it.

on to much brighter news...i have decided that i'm going back to school!!!! nursing school!!! pediatric nurse!!! i have to wait to register until next year though. the program that i want to go to (UIC) is all filled up this year therefore i have a whole year to get used to the idea that i will not have a life for two years!!! how did i come to this decision, you are asking? well i've started volunteering at the University of Chicago Children's Hospital and i love it!!! Ever since i worked at Cook County hospital i've thought about nursing school but i also enjoyed my job at the time so i didn't really give it too much thought. I think i'm ready now though!! i'm actually excited about going back to school!!! could you imagine me assisting with the birth of a baby!!! a brand new life!!! an innocent, defenseless beautiful baby. AND i will be there to welcome him/her into the world!!! "it is my honor to welcome you into the world little one" okay i better stop before i make myself cry...

6 comments:

Santiago said...

I think it is life wearing us down and this is why we are tired. I completely feel ya. I think this is why I am digging taking public transportion. Please, take care of yourself. Don't do it for me. Do it for yourself.

You will be a great nurse. Con esa sonrisa vas aliviar a un chorro de gente. Good for you.

Cincysundevil said...

I agree with Santiago. Life can run you down, especially with the way that you just keep going & going. As silly as it sounds, I think that having to use public transportation isn't helping either; having to wait for buses, transfers, guys like me hitting on you ... it's gotta be tough on you. Get thee a car I say!

I am stoked that you're going back to school and I'm a bit jealous. Those are the sorts of decisions that make life so worthwhile.

DCNats said...

That's great that you're going to go back to school... I'm thinking about doing the same thing. There is a really good paralegal progam at a school near by so we'll see.

sonrisa morena said...

santis, i am doing my best to take care of myself and thanks for compliment :-)

cincy, when did you say you were coming to chicago? do i need to be anymore blunt..i'm popping out my...as i type ;-) i'm really excited about going back to school!!!

dcn, good luck!!! i hope you get as excited about going back to school as i am!!

Cracked Chancla said...

i love to have blood drawn, they never take enough. its crazy i know but i love to watch my blood filling up their tubes. i would give my blood in your place if they would allow it.

and i think its awesome that your going back to school. well, you'll have a place to go study on the soutside, i promise not to interrupt you too much. :)

Ktrion said...

You are totally cute making yourself cry by thinking about welcoming babies! That's a great plan--really exciting!