it's official!!!!

i have a boyfriend!!! a wonderful boyfriend!!! hmm? why am i so excited? don't know and don't care. he tells me that he feels a little pressure due to the fact that i haven't been in a committed relationship for 6 years. he is sooo sweet!! we still haven't told my sister but he tells me that he will talk to her as soon as she comes back from mexico. i'm actaully nervous but i'm too happy for her to ruin this!! have i told you how wonderful he is? i hope not to be writing the opposite in a few weeks or months. we are having dinner tonight at my place and i can't wait to see him...damn!!! when did i get to this point?!?!? don't know if i'm liking this!! we were on the phone 'til one o'clock in the morning last night!! fellow bloggers, i must admit that sometimes i wonder...what if i'm just doing this because i don't want to be alone anymore or because i'm scared this opportunity will never come by again or because i'm thinking that i want this man to father my children. hmmm? actually, i think he would be a great dad!! i like the way he talks about his nieces and nephews...

i'm with this man because i like me when i'm around him!! i'm my crazy self and he doesn't seem to mind. he laughs at the goofy things i do and boy does he make me laugh!! we've had really intense conversations and silly conversations. ooohh, i so wish that a few months from now none of this has changed and if it has i wanted to be for the better. i'm so scared!!! last night we were talking about going to spain next year and what "we" needed to do financially to get there. "we"? that "we" scared me. i'm used to just "me". i'm used to doing things by myself, not having to think about anybody other than me...not because i'm selfish but because that's how it has been for the past few years. i'm not at all selfish but i don't want to come off like that to him. he tells me he understands. oh my fellow bloggers, i'm really falling for this guy!!

on a different note, guess who called last night? Mr. K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that was such a wierd conversation!! he told me he had just gotten back from Africa and was thinking of me and was wondering if he could see me. i was thinking "dude, i know exactly what you are doing!!! and i ain't nobody's booty call!!!" i was JUST thinking it, i didn't tell him that. i did tell him that i was dating someone hoping that it would develop into something serious. he told me he was very happy for me and wished me the best then hung up. oh yeah, life is good at the moment!!