Wednesday, April 26, 2006

it's official!!!!

i have a boyfriend!!! a wonderful boyfriend!!! hmm? why am i so excited? don't know and don't care. he tells me that he feels a little pressure due to the fact that i haven't been in a committed relationship for 6 years. he is sooo sweet!! we still haven't told my sister but he tells me that he will talk to her as soon as she comes back from mexico. i'm actaully nervous but i'm too happy for her to ruin this!! have i told you how wonderful he is? i hope not to be writing the opposite in a few weeks or months. we are having dinner tonight at my place and i can't wait to see him...damn!!! when did i get to this point?!?!? don't know if i'm liking this!! we were on the phone 'til one o'clock in the morning last night!! fellow bloggers, i must admit that sometimes i wonder...what if i'm just doing this because i don't want to be alone anymore or because i'm scared this opportunity will never come by again or because i'm thinking that i want this man to father my children. hmmm? actually, i think he would be a great dad!! i like the way he talks about his nieces and nephews...

i'm with this man because i like me when i'm around him!! i'm my crazy self and he doesn't seem to mind. he laughs at the goofy things i do and boy does he make me laugh!! we've had really intense conversations and silly conversations. ooohh, i so wish that a few months from now none of this has changed and if it has i wanted to be for the better. i'm so scared!!! last night we were talking about going to spain next year and what "we" needed to do financially to get there. "we"? that "we" scared me. i'm used to just "me". i'm used to doing things by myself, not having to think about anybody other than me...not because i'm selfish but because that's how it has been for the past few years. i'm not at all selfish but i don't want to come off like that to him. he tells me he understands. oh my fellow bloggers, i'm really falling for this guy!!

on a different note, guess who called last night? Mr. K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that was such a wierd conversation!! he told me he had just gotten back from Africa and was thinking of me and was wondering if he could see me. i was thinking "dude, i know exactly what you are doing!!! and i ain't nobody's booty call!!!" i was JUST thinking it, i didn't tell him that. i did tell him that i was dating someone hoping that it would develop into something serious. he told me he was very happy for me and wished me the best then hung up. oh yeah, life is good at the moment!!

8 comments:

*~Marie~* said...

Sonrisa! I am so excited for you! You sound so happy. I am glad you can be yourself with him...if you couldn't...what is the point right! You have a boyfriend :)...glad he treats you right!

dr.v (Not a narcotic Pez dispenser) said...

u see! and u were thinking about listening to your sister's silly/obsurd wishes to stay away from fluffman. i'm glad u took the chance. and don't think so negative. take it one day at a time.

so Mr. K was in Africa! well, u are better off without his ass.

DCNats said...

wow that's so perfect that Mr. K tried to make a booty call and you got to hit him with the boyfriend surprise!
and stop over analyzing why you're happy!? just enjoy... no need for the "what if i'm just doing this because..." talk. You're happy- and that's bottom line.

LadyK said...

You go Sonrisa! I'm happy for you! Dang, now I gues I'm the only one left that hasn't dated in about 5 or 6 years ;-) Holla at you!!!

Coco said...

Felicidades!!
Un nuevo "amorcito" para alegrarte la vida : )
May this wonderful feeling last forever!!

Un fuerte y caluroso abrazo.
Cuidate!

sonrisa morena said...

marie, i AM happy...he makes me feel good!!

dr.v, we,the fluffman and i, are very happy as well :-)...did i just say "we"?!?!? hehehehehe

dcn, i'm trying my best not to analyze things too much but i think it's just my nature...

lady k, thanks for stopping by!! lets rembember that good things happen to the one s that wait ;-)

coco, thank you so much for the warm wishes. i too hope this lasts a long time.

Cracked Chancla said...

ack, i'm late but i am sooooo happy for you. you sound so happy too. and yeah, don't overanalyze things just enjoy the moment for everything it is.

Santiago said...

I am real happy for you. Enjoy the moment!! Enough said. Just enjoy it.