Friday, December 01, 2006

i want it to be like it was...

well this thanksgiving sucked and i think things will continue to suck for a while..ours thanksgiving was not at all festive.

my daddy was in the hospital. he had his gall bladder removed and had to spend extra days in the hospital for precautinary reasons due to his age. it got really scared. my dad and i have not had the greatest relationship however lately it's been getting alot better. we actually hug and i kiss him good bye whereas before we couldn't be in the same room without us getting into an arguement. when i went to go see him in the hospital we both started crying. the surgery wasn't that serious but to see my daddy in the hospital bed scared me!!! i've known for a while that he is not the strong scary man he once was. he looked old and scared to me in that bed. it just made think about too much!!

that same week my brother in law went back to the hospital. it's not looking too good for him. we had post poned our thanksgiving dinner for this saturday but my mom doesn't feel too comfortable having it with my brother in law in such bad shape...he needs a heart transplant SOON!!!. i already hated these holidays, this is just make it worse. i'm trying really hard to keep strong...since i'm the freakin' social worker i keep being asked to talk to the family. it keeps getting harder though because i can't tell them that "things will be okay" when i know they won't be okay and they won't be okay for a while. i just want things to be the way they use to be.

other than that things are okay with me. i've been really depressed but that's normal and i know it will pass. mr. colombian has been awsome. he continues to be a jerk though but he has been good to me latetly...frienshipwise. he makes me laugh when i most need it. i'm still working my two jobs. i need to start my christmas shopping...it will be very short list this year. i'm not really sure if there will be a christmas for us...

kachito is still being a punk to other people but he loves me and that's all that matters to me!!!

have a good weekend my fellow bloggers and please take care of yourselves...

5 comments:

Coco said...

I am so sorry for your pain...
Unfortunately, the past is that- "past". No hay regreso atras...

Sé fuerte! No estas sola!! El amor de Dios y de tus seres queridos SIEMPRE te acompañan.

Un fuerte y caluroso abrazo, amiga.

Bendiciones,
Coco

Tracy said...

Albert and Lucy send you huggins and lickins and hope you're feeling better.

xoxo,
woof woof.

Santiago said...

i want it to be like it used to be too.... they were happier times.

Cracked Chancla said...

i've been away and just saw this. i hope your dad and brother in law get better. cyberhugs and good vibes to you.

sonrisa morena said...

thank you all for your good vibes :-)

tracy, give albert and lucy a hug for me :-)